Far Cry

The happiness of a man in this life does not consist in the absence but in the mastery of his passions.

Alfred Lord Tennyson (1809 – 1892)

I so awfully miss having the ability to climb. Today I have physical therapy and I'm looking forward to a new technique the doctor will be using. You see this will be my 6th week of therapy and unfortunately we haven't gotten the results that we are looking for so we have to step it up a bit. Not to sound whiny but every single day I wake with sore and achy neck and shoulder muscles, and believe it or not it's pretty much been this way since October of last year. My frustration continues to grow as the pain doesn't fade. I go into therapy near the end of the week when I'm at my worst and I get soft tissue work, ultrasound, and the e-stem unit. And of course it feels good at the time to be able to relax but it never fully loosens up my muscles. Which by the way is the point of me going to PT. And this is why last week we talked about trying something different. It took me a while to remember how to say this but what we are going to try is something called Iontophoresis. Apparently, what this does is transmits the medication directly to your muscles. And what he will be using is an anti-inflammatory (Dexamethazone). At this point I will try anything to speed up my healing process. It's been way too long that I've been in this state. I want to get back to doing what I LOVE to do which is climb.

These were some pictures that were taken not too long before I started to have the problems which lead to my neck surgery in January. This is probably when I was at my strongest. When I look at these photos my heart starts to beat faster and it almost makes me want to cry. It was such a huge part of my life. And I gained so much from climbing which is why I miss it so much.
But not before I'm ready will I jump back in. Although patience is definitely not one of my best virtues.


  1. Ok you. It will all come in time. I know patience is something I am not fond of either so I cant say much but all things happen for a reason, maybe this is a lesson in one way or another or maybe it is a way to make your heart grow fonder of the things.

  2. I can't even imagine what you're dealing with! I had minor back problems since high school and they worsened with pregnancy. I thought I was through with it all, until Ace started getting fat and wanting to be carried around. This is nothing compared to your suffering! Take care of your old arse - you'll be back whoring yourself out on those rocks in no time!