Speed of Light

All day I've had daydreams about the science of Superman - and how handy would it be in fact to have the amazing ability to harness time. His powers are said to turn back time by reversing the rotation of the earth. Not that I want to go back in time.............I really just want it to speed up! Have you ever seen that movie "CLICK" with Adam Sandler? This movie as far as I'm concerned shows you what a curse it would be if we had the ability to accelerate time. With his little remote he ended up fast forwarding through more time than he realized and in the end paid for it dearly. He let all of life's little moments pass him by without thinking of the consequences. It's no wonder that when you actually have something to look forward to that the time drags by just a little bit slower because you're paying such close attention. As if life is supposed to be so much sweeter when we relish every stinking moment..............alright, alright..........I'm not that jaded I have the ability to appreciate the little things in life as adequately as the next guy but our everyday lives aren't always that defined. Generally I wake up at the same time everyday, get to work at the same time everyday, get home around the same time, cook dinner early enough every evening at the same time, & try to go to bed at the same time every night but not before I write at least one page in my journal about my day or how I'm feeling...................now if that's your idea of exciting then I'm missing something. I most importantly look forward to my weekends which is really the only time I genuinely feel like ME - you know why? It's because I get to pick where I want to go and what I want to do.................I facilitate my weekend experiences to be however exciting or boring I feel they should be. Normally, I have the strongest urge to be outdoors especially since I'm couped up in the windowless office you hear about so much. That is something I need to keep reminding myself of - why? Because, that just isn't what I want for the rest of my life. To have a menial job that shows nothing of who I am or what I am really capable of. Knowing that this is how I feel makes it that much harder for me to go in everyday. It's only a matter of time before I've reached my limit, honestly my body can't take sitting in a chair every single day which is all the more reason why I shouldn't be doing it. Not that I'm going to go apply for disability or anything but I need to do what is in my best interest. I envision my life playing out a certain way as I have never done before and you know I like what I see. It is just a matter of making it happen. Mark my words.